The pain keeps rising in my chest
so I just shove it down deeper,
but the pain doesn’t cease.
it manifests as a relentless aching
strangling my heart.
I withdraw behind a smile
and hide my tears with laughter,
but inside I’m building up a wall
so that this pain
never sees the surface.
And this wall forms a barrier
between me and others
preventing human connection
and obstructing natural emotion,
but I can’t seem to let myself tear it down.